MS and the Mind
Readers sent a flood of letters on the subject of MS and their minds. Here are some highlights, reflecting many different experiences and many common themes.
“I’ve had episodes of almost total disorientation. I didn’t mention these lapses to my neurologist during my diagnosis interview because I had no idea they could be MS-related and my neurologist never asked me about mental symptoms.” —Howard Bell, Minnesota
“I spread my company benefits package out on the kitchen table and stared. It was so beyond what I could deal with I sat there and cried. Eventually I was able to make heads and tails of it but this sort of thing happens more frequently than I like.” —Sandra Elkins, via e-mail
“I am much more emotional than I used to be, especially right before my period. My neurologist prescribed Wellbutrin. I don’t feel any different, but my coworkers say they notice improvement.” —Lisa Roesner, New Jersey
“There are times when I cry at a commercial and yet I have to remember to act excited when other people think that’s appropriate. These are signs of depression, but I am not at all depressed. There are times when even simple everyday things can throw me completely. I use self-hypnosis, meditation, and just plain faking to keep a positive attitude—and it works (most days).” —Eileen Tolan, via e-mail
“I can go from happy to depressed to angry in the snap of a finger. My neurologist prescribed antidepressants, which have helped, but I find I also need to notice and adjust my attitude constantly.” —Ann Stauffer, Ohio
“My first neurologist said this was all in my head, that I would have to have severe MS and I only had mild. When I switched to a new neurologist I learned that a majority of people with MS have some form of cognitive problem. Hearing that alone helped because I no longer had the stress of thinking I was just imagining things.
“Change doctors if you are told these mental problems aren’t real symptoms of MS!” —Kathy Abbott, North Carolina
“What saves me is my warped sense of humor. I talk to my disease. I tell it to beat up on the 90% of my brain that I’m not currently using. The honest part of me admits that I was once very arrogant about my mental abilities. Everything came almost too easily. MS has taught me patience and humility.” —Julie Bushinski, Pennsylvania
“I kept feeling I was having trouble with my memory and it took me a year and a half to remember to ask my doctor about it!” —Jean Evans, via e-mail
“The thought of asking for help just tears me apart. I’ll do it if I have to crawl to get it done. My most embarrassing moment was a Thanksgiving Day when I forgot how to cook the turkey. I took the easy way out and ordered dinner from Safeway. Hey, I didn’t even have to admit I had forgotten. Did somebody say attitude check?” —Name withheld, Washington
“I struggle with things like T-shirts because I can’t figure out which is the front and which is the back. I brought up some of the difficulties I was having in my small MS support group. It turned out to be a very tearful meeting as 3 out of the 5 of us have these same weird problems. We all felt such a release to discover we weren’t crazy.” —Name withheld, California
“I was in the chess club in high school. In seminary I continued to play and win, but while serving in my first church I noticed my power of concentration starting to wane. This coincided with the onset of my MS. Still, I love crossword puzzles and during baseball season I mentally calculate percentages from reports on the radio and check the sports page to see if I get it right. I do. My conclusion? I’m still a math wizard but when it comes to solving the deeper problems in life, I think I will call in the experts.” —Milton Lentz, pastor emeritus, United Methodist
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|Last updated May 2006|